(be)loved.

Nome: Nathalia Araújo de Carvalho

RGM: 23832428

Turma e turno: Literatura Inglesa e Norte-Americana- Matutino

 

Poemas escolhidos:

 

you are in the habit

of co-depending

on people to

make up for what

you think you lack

 

who tricked you

into believing

another person

was meant to complete you

when the most they can do is complement

 

                       loneliness is a sign you are in desperate need of yourself

 

Intertexto:

Rupi Kaur’s raw and emotional poetry reminded me of a few of Mitski’s lyrics. There are quite a few similarities between their works and their often chosen themes, such as feminine rage and sorrow, eroticism and intense but flawed relationships, even if they can differ on how they choose to approach these themes. With that in mind, I chose the song “Nobody”.

                                                 

                                           You can also access the song here!

It’s not only about loneliness, but also the need to fill this loneliness with relationships, with other people. It’s about the impulse to search elsewhere what you cannot find within yourself. But while the speaker in Mitski's song remains trapped inside their own loneliness, waiting for someone to save them, Kaur's poems reveal a certain level of self-awareness. They are aware of this impulse, that it is taught by the world and its coldness, instead of an innate necessity, and seem to be coming to terms with it. In the chosen poems from "Milk and Honey", the speaker proposes that dealing with loneliness doesn't depend on other people, but instead, that the answer lies within each person. 

I chose these texts not only because their themes were similar, but because they complemented each other, because I saw (and hopefully, you can see it as well) an evolution of sorts, a spiritual growth found between these works. 

Kaur's poems are, to me, the perfect answer to Mitski's song. 

And it was based on these thoughts that I (tried to) write the poem below:

 

Produção artística:

 

(be)loved.
 
a child still,
you wonder
why no one wishes
to stay
with you
 
whether you
cry
or smile
whether you talk
or shut
your mouth
 
it is never
Enough
it is never
Good or
Right
 
because no
body
wants to
stay
no
body
will give
you love
 
a tall child
still
you realize
that it’s no wonder
nobody loves
you
don’t even want
it to stay

not even
you
wants to stay
 
just stop
for a minute, stay
and just
be
 
loved.

-it was you all along.